Slappin'

Spending time with people I don't normally spend time with makes me happy (: Idk, I guess I like the idea of venturing out of the norm, yenno?

Budddddy I needa repaint my nails again. And do my Taliban essay -_________-

sigh, fuck homework.

secrets.

Idk how I should've felt, or how I even feel about what I found out, so.. I'll just leave it as the past.

But I feel uneasy, knowing that shit still hasn't been resolved. Nothing's the same, we're just two distant people, living our separate lives, and mingling when needed. Maybe this is for the best? I don't know. But it's peaceful.. I guess.

I easily get bored. I need an escape. For when I can't deal with people around me, when I can't deal with all the bullshit of my everyday life. I hate routine, but I'm not a fan of spontaneity.
Where do I stand, undecided, unsure?

Laziness is taking over me. I'm sick and tired of everything.
I don't even know why! But I just am.

Waiting on some quality time with some people. That's all I ever live for nowadays.

Dissatisfied.

I've been meaning to blog for a long time but something or another always comes up when I'm about to. But anyway, January was hell month for me. Constant attempts at studying, and ridiculous amounts of work needed to be done, and well, there wasn't any time for anything else. Overall, I can only wish that I studied more, that I focused more on certain things instead of wasting my time doing irrelevant things. Not to dwell in the past but I did fail myself at obtaining something that I really wanted, because I didn't work hard enough for it. But life goes on.

New classes, chill first week, but now the work's starting to come in. It still is nothing compared to last term, but the extensive deadlines and the miniscule amount of homework is making me lazy, and giving me chances of saying, "I can do this tomorrow, it's not due yet". I need to stop procrastinating, but I can't. I guess you can compare it to an addiction. I'm almost done with my work for the week. I guess I can call last week my real "break". Feels weird though, not having to do anything, or constantly stress about things. Feels odd waking up, not worried about this or that. Just waking up, looking forward to the day ahead. It get's boring though, because it's close to being monotonous. I miss my Biology class- the dynamics, that is. Sigh.

I'm beginning to feel really tired of the way things are right now. Everything feels so unreal. I'm just not quite feeling it. There's something missing, because I feel emptiness, I feel loneliness. I'm questioning things again, wondering if it's all just a game. I'm sick of the routine, I need something new, someone new to come along and spice up my world.

In class today, we were asked "name 3 items or friends you would bring with you on an island and why". Wanna know what bugs me?

I couldn't think of a single 'friend' to bring.

It made me sad..