i have no right.
not at all.

to feel jealous.

this all happened in youth group today.
things were going pretty well at first, saw josue, gave him the bracelet, chatted with people..
the usual.
took pics with peeps too.
but then, after dinner.
aha, things started heating up.
kelly and I, we were talking about some random stuffs.
well, skip skip to the part where it all happened.

we were watching this clip.
so like, josue told me to go over to where he, chris and kelly were seating.
so i sat like, beside kelly, to her left.
and josue was on her right.
then they were talking and everything...

when they started stealing a few kisses with each other.
of course, it felt REALLY weird, cos like, we were in church, and and, ms perian was just a few feet away from us.
so they were talking and everything, blah blah.
and i was just sitting there, and you know, jealousy.
well, i dont have the right to be, cos josue's not my anything.
but i just felt.
just.

so you know, i was watching the clip, and watching them too.
and cringe so bad when they kiss. :/

what bothers me the most is that she, doesnt like him.
she's all like, oh my heart is for bryan, but my body is for josue.
like, physical stuff.
i know im not supposed to blog about this, but nevermind, cos she doesnt know my blog anyway.

it just sucks.

so that kinda spoiled my youth group mood.

oh lord, please help me.