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GAH.
i signed on tonight, with a happy mood, because i manged to FINISH MY MATH HOMEWORK.
as in, ALL OF THE QUESTIONS. so i was happy and accomplished right? then guess what?
MY AIM ISN'T WORKINGGGGGG.
bitches. >x[

so now im pissed off.
because yeah, i was already stressed to begin with, and my mood lightened up, only to have it drop WAAAAY down again.

school's getting tougher now.
realization kicks in, about how many freaking essays/writeups we do in english class.
its like, at least one per week?
it's doable, but its really stressing sometimes, especially on top of math, spanish and health homework. i cannot wait for the next set of schedule to come, the workload would be easy then.
but for now, i just have to suck it up and stay strong.
how i wish kayla was here with me. she was really the only one who understood everything about me.

english class is still pretty okay for me, its just like, my kind of class. i just wish the work wouldn't be so tedious. however, adam is really pissing everyone off lately.
like, i admit, he already is fairly annoying in the first place, but now, 'cause we're doing a trial for OMM, his annoying-ness has increased exponentially, and my tolerance for him is wearing thin. he's already pissed anna and baldeep off, and he's starting to piss me off, even though i'm not really working with him for the trial. he thinks he's all that, just because it's his goal to be a fucking lawyer. its been going on since like, what, monday or something? he's all, 'THIS IS THE PERFECT thing for me to do because i wanna be a lawyer when i grow up. so i BETTER get the lawyer part". he's acting like a know-it-all in law, and i mean, i respect the fact that its his dream and he's enthused about it, but the enthusiasm is up to the point of overreaction. seriously. and i still think it would've been better if the OMM was just a written test, instead of this trial. there's too much to do and prepare and think of.

i've been stressing about a lot of things lately. on top of schoolwork, i have spirit week preparation, and like, i'm okay with all that work, really i can handle it, but its just that it's a hard situation for me because i don't have the freedom to stay in school for however long i want to, because i have a sister to take care of. really though, if she just agreed on staying in the afterschool program in brier, things would've been way easier for everyone, but no, she decided to go all selfish, saying there's nothing to do in school. WELL GUESS WHAT. she doesn't do anything at home either! that just gets waaaay on my nerves. see, i can't participate in anything anymore because i have to pick her up and stay home with her. DAMNNN.

i can't do much clubs anymore either, cause i found out that i have ASB meetings every wednesday (job interview outfits too. damn it.), journalism on tuesday, and asian club on fridays. i was supposed to have key club meetins on thursdays too, but i decided not to attend anymore, i need that break. lunch is my only time to hang out with people i dont have classes with, and if i occupy that, i think i'd breakdown sooner or later. so yeah, i might even quit journalism, even though its something i'd REALLY like to do, because that club involves more work, an article for the paper is due in a week's time, and it could be quite time consuming, depending on the article. PLUS, i'm running out of INK! seriously. i've been printing so much crap since school started. as for the asian club, i'd have to see about that. like maybe i'd go to the meeting tomorrow and check out what stuff we'd be doing, and if it's not that appealing, then i won't join it.
otherwise, my whole weeks worth of lunch is occupied. i cant handle that. >x[

we got kicked out of the computer lab today, because some idiot decided to whistle, even though we were all strictly warned not to whistle in the computer lab, because mr mann(?) has like some strict policies about that. mr mann has some serious issues. he needs to take a chillpill, drink some water, and snort altoids. huh dat? x] oh yeaaaah, in math class, i tried taking a whiff off a sharpie, and i started coughing. tori said, "YOU'RE WEAK". its cause she whiffed out of 4 sharpies at the same time yesterday. she's one weird person, that chick is x] but dont take that seriously, the sharpiesniffing is just a joke. (:

man, this post got long. i had a lot to say. so i hope you enjoyed reading that.
if not, well, go die in a fire.