i needa let it all out.

i've given up hope that we'd get back together, being close friends like we were just a mere month or two ago. i don't know why things are going this way, but i'm trying to accept it. i try not think about it too much, but it never fails to occupy me whenever i'm alone. which is quite often, once i get out of school. i ask myself, 'why is this all happening?' and the bloody radio isn't helping any bit, cause it keeps on playing songs that reminds me of just like, EVERYTHING i've been through. i'm sick of it, but i can't turn it off. my passion for music still overcomes everything. and now all these stupid problems are making me skip studying for that damn health quiz that's probably gonna be hard. its late, i want to sleep, but i can't cause i needa rant. i needa spill it all, but there's no one there to listen. see, you said i'd have you anytime, but where are you now? we don't talk anymore. i miss what we had, it wasn't much, but it was something. we definitely had something. people would say it's not worth crying for, but you don't know me. do you know how i truly feel inside? i am in desperate need to have a shoulder to lean on, to have a hand to hold, to have someone to be there for me. and no, i am not talking about a boyfriend. so shut the heck up. i feel the need to cry, but i can't do it anymore. i need someone to talk to, but there's no one anymore. i don't like the feeling of loneliness engulfing me.

i can't do this anymore.