Never thought the day would come,

When I would feel this way. I never thought I would feel, hurt. You know? Like it never crossed my mind that problems like this would show up. That we would be put through a test. But I guess it's getting to me that you're a constant reminder of certain things I wish I wasn't reminded about. And I'm not saying that you have it easy, even though it seems like it. I guess it's a different set of feelings I wouldn't know about. I don't even know what's going on in my life. In our life together. I guess sometimes it hurts how you don't put me in front of everybody else. But if there's anyone to blame, that would be me. Because I made you be my EVERYTHING in life. And I guess it hurts not to be the same to you. I wish I could tell you, and not be called stupid. Because I need you to listen. I need to tell you how I'm feeling. And that I don't blame you. But I wish for once, things are not about you. That maybe, for once, it could be about me.

I wish this would all pass and we're genuinely okay again.