Couldn't help it,

But to let them flow.
It's not easy to hide. Hide everything that you want to scream out, hide everything that you want them to know. It seeps out sometimes, yearning to get something, but never gaining anything. I don't like the feeling of loneliness, of being lost. It eats me inside. Being by yourself isn't fun. Not when you see other people around you, with somebody else. Not when you know, that you don't deserve this. Not when, whoever left you, is just right there. Not when you don't even know what you did wrong. So many questions running through my mind. Stop it, please.

You,
I was always there for you, even if you didn't want me to. I always reached out a helping hand, knowing that you could use one. Even last night, I did my best to stop you from being upset. But today, I asked for a favor, if we could talk, and I said, "I really need someone right now". What did you say? "K. I'm gonna be at ampm. Go there." Like that helped one bit? You're gonna be with your friends, how am I supposed to talk to you in that atmosphere? I needed your attention, I needed your care. I needed you, just for that second. I needed you, to be there. But even you can't do what I did for you. Just a simple listening ear was all I needed. But no, even that, you can't provide. And then I waited for you, thinking, hey, maybe he'll come talk to me now that he's done chilling with his buddies. How stupid of me, for you just simply walked past. And with fresh tears in my eyes, I watched you walk away.

With the tears rolling down my cheeks, welling up my eyes, blurring my vision, I watched the world walk away.