hello :D
youth week is over ):

PLEASE PLEASE READ THIS POST!

anyway the friday sleepover was really fun.
but before that, i heard some very upsetting news from my dad.
he's going to california for a week, for a JOB INTERVIEW.
which means, if he gets the job, which is VERY likely, we're gonna have to move there.
shock.

so while he was driving me to church friday evening, he was telling me stuffs about opportunities, how they're once in a lifetime, sacrifice, blah blah blah.
good thing i had my shades on though, i was this close to crying.
that's because, dude, i've been here for seven months.
i've made friends, especially in church.
i have a GREAT youth group, with a couple of really good friends.
especially TREVOR.
i mean, it struck me right there, after hanging out with trevor for the whole week.
so it all came to me that sometime sooner or a bit later, i'm gonna have to leave them.
i dont know, you cant imagine the hurt it caused me.
well anyway, in the car, i figured that i had to tell someone about my problems.
and boom, trevor came to mind.
and so did caroline.

so like, i wanted to tell trevor immediately, but he wasnt there when i arrived.
i ended up getting distracted by guitar hero and all the fun things happening there.
so i didnt tell trevor, or caroline.
then we played games, ate dinner and all.
then the message came.

the message, is like the sermon from a church, only shorter, and much more youth friendly. hahaha. anyway, this really cool guy called Rob delivered the message.
so like yeah, i was listening intently and all, and coincidence much, it was about trusting in god and how god has plans for each of us.
so right there, when he was reading a verse, i almost cried.
cos a part of the verse said "god has a plan for each and everyone of you, to give you hope and a future"
and that verse really strucked me like lightning there, cos i was just confused and everything, like how i know God has a reason for everything, but i didnt know the reason why he wants us to go move again.
so then Rob was saying stuffs like, " i know you guys are struggling with problems, i dont know what kind of problem, but i know you are in need of God's help"
and then i felt like he was only talking to ME.
so he kept on saying those stuffs about the problems and all.
and i started tearing right there.
man, even SEAN was tearing.
and i think trevor was, too.
so like there's some more stuffs Rob said, which i cant really remember, cos i was kinda sobbing there, but silently. just sniffling and stuff.

then the message was over, i went to the bathroom to go wash my face.
hah, i saw i had SUPER DUPER RED EYES.
not bloodshot. but obvious crying eyes.
so i tried to wash it off, but i couldnt.
so caroline and hannah saw my eyes.
and asked me if there was something wrong.
i kept on saying no, and my hair HAD to be right in front of my face.
so i was like " no nothing is wrong" and i had red eyes and emo hair. XD
so i guess the know something is wrong.
just that i wouldnt tell them.

so we ended up playing sardines!
it was so fun.
ahahah.
rachel and eriq went to hide in the storage room.
which was sooo dark.
it was freaky.
and our group, hannah, caroline and I, we were in the room first!
but we couldnt find them.
they were hiding ABOVE the generators.
we were searching under stuffs or behind stuffs. XD

so like, then we watched superman returns.
and the lights were turned off and everything.
i hung out with caroline, daniella and trevor.
and trevor was talking so much, caroline constantly smacked his head.
hahaha.
anyway, we made this video of trevor being retarded.
or should i say, his USUAL self.
hahaha.
he took my pillow, which said QUIET, SLEEPING IN PROGRESS.
then he covered his head with the pillow, and screamed his head off.
and he ended that with, i dont have problems.
with this voice he used, that obviously showed he had mental problems.
we were LAUGHING OUR HEADS OFF.
that made me feel better.

so then i think we watched half of the movie.
sean gave us popcorn in cups, and he was wearing a cornhead rubber thing.
and then trevor snatched it, and became corn man.
lol.
and he was doing all these silly stuffs and everything.

then me and caroline and daniella went off the change into our PJ's.
and they didnt go back to the lounge after that.
caroline was in the social hall, talking to people.
i went back to the lounge and went to look for trevor.
but then he was playing super smash bros with the guys.
so i went to play guitar hero.
it was cool.

then we kinda like went out to the courtyard.
and i was just walking with trevor back to the social hall.
when he asked if we wanted to talk about why i was crying a couple of hours ago.
i was crying like around 8.30 pm.
and we talked around 1.30 am.
so like yeah, i poured out all i wanted to say to trevor about the moving thing, plus the part where my dad felt bad for me (i mentioned that in my previous post).
so i just like told trevor everything.
i poured my heart out at him.
and he was sitting there, nodding his head, listening.
and i told him how hard it was to make friends and lose them when you're just about getting really close to them.
and i also told him that i think he was my best friend there in church.
well, i was like " to me, i think you're my best friend here in church. but i dont know about you, you might think i'm too wierd or something, or emo or whatever, but to me you're my best friend :D"
then i kinda like just sat there and looked at him.
surprisingly, i didnt cry.
i pictured that talk to be so emotional for me.
haha, but i guess when you're talking to trevor, you cant get yourself to cry.
he's too funny and everything.
i mean, the fact that he's usually goofy and then talking to him seriously cant make me cry.
anyway, i was just staring at him like that.
then he was like, aww, come here.
and he gave me a hug that lasted a couple of seconds :D
hahaha.
right there, i knew i didnt want to leave florida.
i dont want to leave this AMAZING youth group.
and i dont want to leave a friend like trevor.
i always wanted a guy best friend.
and here, im about to have it.
and i dont want to let go of it ):

so we just talked.
and i kinda repeated what i said alot.
hahaha.
and so i asked him, do you get what i mean?
and he said, yeah, you said that four times already.
XDDD.
so like, he was calling people who passed by us to sit with me and talk and bond.
but they think trevor wants them to sit there cos there was something wrong with the chair, or there's a frog under it or something.
hahaha, trevor is BAD at giving advice.
but he listened to me.
when i needed him the most.
and i love him.
as a buddy though.
hahaha.

so like, he went to the youth lounge, supposedly to clean up.
and i just sat there by myself.
then claudia and izzy sat with me.
then we went to the youth lounge.
to partay :D
hahaha. the movie was over, so we got to play games again and stuff.
and we were just so HYPER (:
it was like, 2 am already.
and we had a surfing trip in a couple of hours time.
we were leaving 5.40 am, and we still werent asleep.
so like we played games and all.
and we tried out the dance revolution game :D
hahaha, hyper hyper!
then perian asked us to go to the social hall already.
cos she had to get some sleep, she was driving the bus in the morning.
and we could sleep in the bus, but she cant.
cos she's driving. duh.

so we went to the social hall.
and we still couldnt sleep!
we were making so much noise.
well, they were. i was just laughing along.
and sean wanted to go over to the girls side and mess with us.
he was like, DAAAD. CAN I PLEAAAASE GO TO THE GIRLS SIDE?
we laughed like heck.

and then mary was just bouncing up and down there.
it was so funny.
and she was making noise beside hannah.
who was asleep hours ago.
so she woke up, and practically TACKLED mary.
hahaaha.

then they took ice from the kitchen, and threw it over to the boys side.
it was so funny.
cos like, there's just this divider so there is a boys side and a girls side.
but it was no use, cos the guys, and we too, were peeping under the dividers.
and we were like, HI!!! and slapping the guys's hands with our flipflops.
lol.
then perian came back in the room.
and we were like, PERIAN! THE GUYS ARE DISTURBING US, THEY'RE PEEPING UNDER THE DIVIDERS!!
but the truth was, we were disturbing one another.
lmao.
so perian told steve, sean's dad, to make him go sleep on the other side of the room.
gahahahaa, sean stood up and walked to OUR side.
which to him, was the OTHER side.
hahahaha.
and steve was like, NOT THERE! OVER THERE! and pointed to the far end of the guy's side of the room.
even trevor had to go move. cos we were just, too hyper.
and we couldnt sleep.
and perian was like, how come the girls are noisier then the guys?
so sean replied, haha, cos we dont want to get in trouble. and we're sleepy.

so the guys slept first than us.
and i got tired.
so i tried to go to sleep.
but everyone else was just too noisy.
i finally went to sleep at 3.30 am.
and around 4.45 i guess, it was dead silent.
only half an hour later, but it felt like only minutes later, they woke us up.
trevor played the trumpet to wake us up, with this waking up song! haah.
and we were like, FIVE MORE MINUTES!
but we were late.
so yeah.

we changed to our swim clothes.
and then we ate breakfast, and went on the bus.
i sat with trevor.
and we slept in the bus.
hahaha.
it was so cool and quiet.
plus it was kinda dark outside.
and trevor was just sleeping.
and i was just sitting there, staring at his cute face.
lmao!
then i went to sleep.
hahaha, we went over this bump, and trevor was like, half sleeping, and he went, huh? and his head went from leaning on the window, to almost leaning on my shoulder.
and i was like, yeah whatever.
and i slept again.
our heads were like an inch from leaning against each other.
hahah.
then we woke up.

and we got off the bus to pick up our surfboards.
and there, i saw josue.
and i was like, oh hi :D
he was giving me the flippin attitude, by not saying hi, and just asking if i saw eriq.
but i couldnt care less, cos i was half asleep there.
lol.
so i teamed up with caroline, hannah and jessica.
and picked up a surfboard.
which ended up being too short for us.
so we had the basics explained to us.
and we went into the water.

it was really exciting, cos the waves were ginormous!
well, not surfing waves, but there were kinda big waves.
not the humongous one usually for surfing.
more like, beginners surfing waves.
i couldnt stand on the board.
i managed to kneel on it, only to fall off.
hahaha. but i tried :D
caroline rolled over and was clinging onto the board for dear life.
it was hilarious.
hannah was the only one who managed to ride the waves.
then we had to give back the surfboards.
so we went into the water and swam, it was pretty cool.
i got REALLYREALLY tan.
seriously.

then we played volleyball :D
hahaha. it was harder, cos like the sand was hard to run on.
and i think i had a sting or a rash on my arm.
hannah and jessica got stung by the portugese man of war.
the jellyfish of death.
but they didnt die. good thing :D
hhahaha.

so we played, and played, and swam...
then i tried skimboarding!
and i did it :D
for a few seconds, before falling off.
hahaha.

so more of that, then we changed and got on the bus.
and went to macdonalds for lunch.
so like, we were just hanging out there.

on the way back to kendall, i sat on the bus with trevor.
and daniella was just a seat across from us.
so we were tickling trevor and everything.
and we were just playing with him like a doll.
and he was like, why are you girls touching me? i know im so sexy.
hahahaha. funny.
we just like, laughed our heads off and everything.
and trevor ws grabbing the person behind him.
which was a guy, and he said, man, keep your hands to yourself. you're getting near the forbidden zone.
you know what i mean. hahaha.

so like, yeah, i wish we have another sleepover like that.
it was really fun :D

and if i really move to california,
im gonna miss trevor so much.
so so much.

youth sunday was good.
we sang my savior, my god during the offering.
and then we hung out in the youth lounge.
and played guitar hero.

josue thinks he's better than me in guitar hero!
ahahaa. i play medium hyper speed.
and he plays hard.
but he always FAILS.
so yeah, i'm still better :D
hahahaha.

then my dad came to pick me and my sister up.
and he was like, thats your last youth thing, youth week is over, you only go for sunday's now.

and i was like, WHAT?

i mean, he cannot do this to me.
there might be school, but there's friday nights.
and i went to friday nights when i had school.
and if we're leaving, its my need to go to friday nights or wednesday nights.
i cannot stop going to youth group just because youth week has ended.
that wont go for me.
tsktsk.

i might end up missing the back to school party on friday.
cos my dad's not here, and i dont have a ride.
but if i had one, i still dont know if i can go.
i hope to go though.


sigh.
i found my confidante.
trevor.
and caroline.
oh, and i told caroline my problem in the bus on the way to deerfield beach for the surfing lessons.
and she gave so-so advice.
better than trevor's though.
hahaha.

im really sorry about this super long post.
and if you read this part, that probably means you read the whole post.
thank you so much for that.

i love you guys. <3