Like Fonzi Said,

The things you do when you're sleep deprived.

I find myself to be overly emotional after 12 am (which in my case, happens everyday). It's good and bad. Good because I think things through a lot at these hours, bad because there's no one to talk to at these hours. (Sometimes Sara is on, then I talk to her, haha) But anyways, I've come to realize that:

- I no longer believe in bestfriendship.
But that's just my opinion, and I'm not saying it can't exist anywhere else. But for now, it does not exist with me. I would say "Hi bestfraan", but it's just a nickname, you know?

- I can never please everybody, so I choose to please myself.
I've been stupid enough to even think that my purpose in life is to make everybody happy, and set aside my own happiness. Which is legit, because I felt like a saint before. But after all that's happened, I have finally finally learned that being nice doesn't get you far. At some point, it's handy knowing how to be the bitch. All that being nice has showed me is that people take you for granted. So now my kindness has become selective. Call me selfish, but for a change, I shall put myself before everybody else. Because everybody can leave you, but you will be stuck with yourself forever.

- It takes a whole damn lot to realize who the treal niggas are.
Whenever shit happens with people I always wish that I never even had to move ever since I was young, so that I would have those 10 years and going type of friends. But everything happens for a reason, and I view friendships as a trial and error process now. People come to your life and make a big impact on it, but someday they will go. So when that happens, brood for a while, then pick yourself up, say thanks, and carry on. I can't believe I'm saying this but, I wish friendship was like math, where there's a method to finding the real ones, without trial and error. But then again, trials and errors are how you learn. These are the most intelligent mistakes you'll make, the ones that will benefit you in the long run.

Told you I have a lot to say at these hours.